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my years in undergad are nearing their end

i wish i could have majored in everything

or at least dabbled

it seems unfair

pick one thing at eighteen

a decision people will make split judgements about for the rest of your life

they do this on purpose

to keep us striving

grasping

reaching for meaning

we end up worn, putting money in place of meaning

why cant i learn everything

wouldn’t that be a great benefit

or would it take far too much time for their liking

i wish i could have learned about rocks and space and math and chemistry and world history

and philosophy and art

sadly, i will be graduating soon

and time will be filled—

occupied

with grasping